A Faith Crisis

Time to Start Blogging again…

It’s been a while since I last posted a blog. I have to admit that I’ve started several blogs but none have never made it past the “draft” phase.

God has been teaching me so much lately- too much to write down regularly. He has been molding me into a better husband, riding me of my pride, and defeating sin in my life. All of this is for one purpose- to make me more like His Son- Jesus.

When this recent journey started, I was convinced that God was going to me molding me into a better pastor- one who would proclaim truth more boldly, teach with more wisdom, and counsel with more care, but being a pastor is not my sole purpose in life. My sole purpose in life is to glorify God through my relationship with Him and my relationships with the people around me. I’m learning that being a good pastor means being a good Christian first.

I still have a burning passion deep in my bones that has yet to relent. But still, even through the dryness of this season, God has been extremely good to feel me with the peace that only He can give. My heart may be restless but I am learning what Paul must have meant to be content in every situation and in every situation living so that one more person to come to know Jesus as their Lord.

People are Different!

Through the journey of the past few months, I have sat under great Godly men. Men who love their wives well, hate sin with passion, repent regularly, and lead with Vision. I have sat with both the long sense converted and the new to the faith. I have ate lunch with those who who drink beer and those who smoke. I have had heated conversations about faith and religion, and I have been encouraged by the great faith of meek men.

God has been showing me that people are so different than I first imagined. Some I relate to, others I struggle to be around, but one thing is certain, God is all around and working in people’s hearts!

I wish I could say that God has given me some great vision to reach people or some grand plan for the advancement of the Kingdom, but I’d be lying if I did. The truth is, all of these new experience have caused me to question my very purpose in this world. All of these new experiences have made it extremely hard to see God as I once did.

It seems as if life is speeding up and new things are happening too fast to keep up!

But there is good news in this rant! 

I was reading the other day and a story jumped up off the page and smacked me in the face. The story had to do with prayer. In the story, the author was saying that there was this one time early in his faith that he really struggled in his prayer life. Some things had changed drastically in his life and he had come to a point that he no longer felt God’s presence in his life. He told of times where he would sit for hours waiting on God to meet in him prayer. He wrote of a very dry season in his spiritual journey that I really can relate to. But then he told of something a friend told him. He was confessing his struggle with praying to his friend, when his friend told him that he wasn’t praying in faith.

The author felt dumbfounded, he left to conversation enraged! Then it hit him, his friend was right! He wasn’t praying in faith that God was there and cared about his prayers. He realized that he had spent so much time focusing on his “feeling” of desertion, that he forgot that God had made some pretty big promises in Scripture regarding His people.

He realized that God hadn’t left him and that God wasn’t angry with him, but God was testing his faith. This is what caught my attention.

Come on Chris… Are you Blind?

I’ve been so focused on my past mistakes and failures, and have been spending way too much time feeling sorry for myself, that I have forgot that God has made the promise to never leave me. God has been testing my faith, to show me what I my dependency on Him.

I’ve come to figure that I have failed this test dramatically! I’ve been fighting with God and been so angry at Him for no good reason. I’ve felt alone and far from God, but He has been by my side the whole time.

Having faith in an invisible God is really hard, but faith is all about believing what you can’t see. God is here and His loving arms are all around us. My faith is not in my feelings, not in my surroundings, not in my actions, and not in my money, but it is in God. My faith is in a all powerful God who moves mountains, divides seas, raises the dead, and feeds thousands. God is my Rock and my Shelter!

I wish I would have realized this sooner!

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The Journey of Life…

Hey WordPress family!

It’s been a while since I last blogged. Life has been crazy busy and God has been doing some incredible things.

I would like to give you all an update on the last four months.

The Sadness…

Well, to start, I resigned from a position that I loved and moved away from the students that brought me great joy. I loved working as a youth pastor at the church that I was serving. I couldn’t ask for a better bunch of students, parents, or congregation! It was a shocker to me to have God knock me on my butt and tell me “Chris, you’ve done all I want you to do here!”

So let’s just say that there were a few weeks of borderline depression- because I left the students I loved, the ministry I have spent so much time investing in, and the position of leadership that I was in. God had been doing a work in my heart for well over a year. He has been stretching me to be more than I could ever be on my own.

I still have to say that my heart is for student ministry and I have every intent to proceed in the future, but God has to finish the work that He has started.

The Journey…

After leaving the church, I have had several ups and downs. Several ministries that I had contact with had started asking me to come join them in their mission. As an attempt to figure out God’s leading, I checked out each of them. To my surprise, these opportunities turned into life lessons. At each door that I approached, God taught me a new lesson. Some of the lessons where about His soveriegnty, while others were about showing me my own sin. So, to say that the last four months has been a journey would be an understatement, and to say that this journey is over would be foolish.

The Purpose…

So, through God teaching me several lessons and giving me some awesome opportunities to meet some great men of the faith, I have been lead to a time of refreshment and revision. After turning down several positions and going in a completely unexpected direction, God has provided a surreal level of peace.

Up until about 3 weeks ago, my life has revolved around the fact that God had asked me to do ministry. My life’s purpose has been to reach a level of competence in a field that I felt God Himself had directed me into. Today, I sit unemployed and still with no idea of the future, but God is good. What I am learning is that even though ministry may be a great thing and the building of the Kingdom may be the call of the Church, neglecting my responsibilities are not.

The Explanation…

Let me explain: The responsibilities that I am talking about are twofold. 1) A calling to ministry should never supercede a calling to Christ. I’m learning that for us pastor types, guys who study ministry methods and theology all day, ministry can become somewhat of an idol. What I am saying is that we can come to love working for God more than loving God. I’m not sure that I could say that I’ve been loving ministry more than God, but I can definitely say that God has made me very aware of this idol in the past few weeks.

I have a desire to fulfill God’s call on my life and this desire is seeded deep in my soul. I believe that God has created me for this purpose and has equipped me to fulfill this calling, BUT that is not the sole purpose of my existence. What God wants just as much as me doing ministry is for me to enjoy Him! He wants a relationship with me, just as much as He wants a relationship with those who do not yet know Him.

Of course, I’ve believed this. Heck, I’ve been teaching this for the past 3 years of ministry! I guess, God decided it was time for me to go back to the basics again.

So on to the second thing: 2) I have a calling to my wife, way before I have a calling to the Church. I love Christ’s Church and my deepest desire is to see God’s people following God, but more than my heart of the church, I need to have a heart for my woman!

Now, if you’ve been around me for more than 5 minutes you’ve heard me talk a lot about my hott wife! I love my woman with all of my heart! She is the greatest thing I’ve ever gotten and way more than I ever deserved. My wife is the “cotton” to my “candy,” the “light” to my “day,” and the “sweet” to my “tea!” What I’m trying to get across is “I love her!”

But sometime affection of the heart can get sidetracked because of the burdens of ministry. My wife and I both feel that we have a great marriage and that I have been a great husband (these are her words). But from time to time, I’ve had more of an affection for my call, than my wife- which is not of God!

Even though God has called me to serve His people, He’s called me first to love, date, hold, talk late into the night, cook for, and clean for my woman. I’m called to be a Godly man before I’m called to be a “Man of God.”

The End…

So, for this season of our life- whether it’s short or long- I’m going to be sitting at the feet of Jesus and dating the hottest woman alive!

Faith, Hope, and Love

I was reading the Scriptures the other day and ran across this verse… again. It struck me in a new light.

1 Thess. 1:3

We remember before our God and Father your work produced by faith, your labor prompted by love, and your endurance inspired by hope in our Lord Jesus Christ.”

Paul is writing to the church in Thessalonica. This verse is part of the introduction or salutation of the letter. Here, Paul is reminiscing with them about the good works that God has done in and through them as a church.

I think there is something that we can learn today from this verse:

I’ve been in kind of a weird place here recently in my life. I’ve recently stepped away from a leadership position in a church so that I can better hear God’s leading. This time has had its good times and it’s not so good times as well. God has revealed new things about Himself and my purpose as His follower, but I’ve also experienced quite a bit of doubts and frustrations. Through new realizations there have been new questions that have arrived.

My mind is constantly taken back to the end of Jesus’ Sermon on the Mount. Where Jesus basically said, if you want to know God- seek Him and He will reveal Himself to you. I’ve blogged about this in the past:  https://guitarchrsbll.wordpress.com/2010/05/31/the-narrow-gate/.

I feel like God is constantly reminding me to remember Him and remember the hope that I have inside- the faith that will drive me.

So, to today’s verse

This brings be back to the verse I gave at the beginning of this blog. There, Paul is reminded of all the great things that God had done through the Church in Thessalonica, and he wants to remind them of this as well.

He says three individual things about the driving Force that they have inside of them, that I would like to bring to you attention.

1) Christian good work is produced through Faith.

As a follower of Christ, I am called to good works. These good works are not my own, because they do not come from me. They are produced by faith. Faith is what not only affects my life, but it affects the lives of others.

I believe that the Bible teaches us to live, not for ourselves, but for the glory of God and to love others more than ourselves.

If you are anything like me, loving others- including God- more than myself is a hard task. “Myself” is what wants to lead. My inward desires are in complete opposition to the good work that God calls me to. That is why I desperately need faith, because faith is what produces good work.

2) Christian labor (mission) is prompted by Love.

So, faith produces good work, but what makes us even want to do good works? I believe John gives us this answer. In 1 John 4:8, it says, “And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them.”

Love is what prompts us to do good works, because God is love. John tells us that whoever lives in love lives in God, and God lives in them.

I don’t know about you, but I want to live in God!

Later in 1 John, it tells us that God displayed His love for us in a special way- Jesus on the cross. So, for Christian labor (mission) to happen it must happen because of love. It must happen because Love first met us and showed us what true love is; then we are able to pursue labor (mission).

3) Christian endurance is inspired through Hope in the Lord- Christ.

I get tired from time to time, and it is in those times that I seem to lose sight of the purpose of everything. But it is also in those times that I am inspired to get back up again and continue. The thing that inspires me, and probably many of you, is Hope.

Hope picks us up again, hope endures, and hope is what keeps us going. Let me explain this concept with a story:

When I was a kid, I got made fun of a lot. I felt that I couldn’t amount to much of anything. Now, if you’ve ever studied psychology, you’ll notice that most people around the world feel this way. But you’ll also notice that many of those people actually give up on life- they take their life.

They give up on life, because they’ve lost all hope that things will get better. They’ve decided that things will never change and therefore, they have no reason to go on.

I almost reached this place when I was a kid. I almost lost all hope. I almost gave up.

But it was Hope that pulled me through. It was hope that picked me back up again. It is hope that continues to drive me.

Paul is telling us that it is hope that produces endurance!

Wrapping this all up…

Let me wrap all of this up for you. Paul is teaching us that there is more to this world, than what we can see, taste, and touch. He is telling us that there is something that is so much more important. But the cool thing about all of this is we already know this!

We already know that “some things just can’t be explained.” Love is an example: What causes us to love someone? Is it simply an emotion/feeling or is it something more?

Poets and musicians alike tell us that it is love that holds the world together and love that unifies all living things.

If this is true, then 1 John 4 teaches us that it is God that holds all things together. It is God that unifies.

A closing thought

I want to end by leaving you with one more thing to think on. In the 1 Thess. verse there is one major thing that stands out; and that is that we are not in control, or we are not the source of faith, hope, and love. Faith, hope, and love are given by an outside source and we are but mere recipients of their fruit.

This give me Hope in this time. When my unending questions find no answer, I am still able to continue because of the Hope that is inside me drives me forward. I trust that God has a plan for my future, and for yours, not because I see it coming, but because I have hope!

Free Your Mind

The above clip is from the 1999 movie “The Matrix.” This is one of my favorite movies of all time. Many people do not know this, but the films original storyboard was based on a loose interpretation of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I think this film has tons of spiritual implications, but we will only discuss one of them today.

Question:

Do you ever hope that there is more to this life?

I do, all the time! I hope that God exists; I hope that God’s plans are sovereign; I hope that God’s plans are good; I hope that my life has a distinct plan; etc. The list goes on.

I wonder a lot about the future- what it will look like, how I will look, etc. I believe that we learn from our pasts, but our futures shape our hearts. What I mean is this: we learn from our past. We learn what to do, what not to do, what we are good at, and what we are not good at. But the future is where our hope lies. We long to know what’s next, who will be there with us, and how long it will take to get there. I believe that it is in those longings, we become who we were meant to be. I believe that it is in those longings God reveals Himself.

Faith

In Hebrews chapters 10 and 11, the significance of faith is revealed to us. Chapter 11 verses 1-2 gives us the definition: “Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see. Through their faith, the people of old earned a good reputation.” NLT

The author, then, continues by leaving us an extensive list of the OT patriarchs and the example of their faith.

Back to the clip

In the clip, Morpheus told Neo that he would have to free his mind in order to leap from one building to the next. As we saw from the clip, Neo didn’t make the jump, but fell to the street.

I can’t help but wonder if this concept is what the Bible is hinting at in its discussion of faith. The “people of old” apparently had great faith and because of that great faith they were able to accomplish some amazing tasks, such as: be taken into heaven without death, start a new nation, have a child when the womb is barren, lead hundreds of people out of the captivity of Egypt, split the Red Sea, and to destroy a city with only marching and horns.

As seen in Hebrews, faith grants God’s people the ability to accomplish amazing tasks.

But there’s a down side to it: No faith=no action. I believe that the author of Hebrews intentionally leaves out the countless stories of people who didn’t have faith for a reason- that reason being they don’t add too much to the grand story of the Bible. I mean, who wants to read about a bunch of people who did the average thing? Who wants to follow in the footsteps of the person who did only mediocre? I know I don’t!

The society we live in tells us that things can only be accomplished by measurable statistics or scientific norms. I can’t seem to give in so easily to this idea. I can’t do so, because my life has been filled with the opposite of the norm.

I have experienced countless moments of doubt on the behalf of others. I have been told time and time again that I “can’t do that.” But every time, God has made a way through. If statistics are always correct then I am the abnormality. If the statistics were correct in my life, I should be a lot farther down the social ladder than I am. To put it another way, my nurturing should have produced different.

I believe that this is because of faith. Faith is what drives my longings for the future. Faith is what gives me hope for the future. Faith is what gives my life purpose in the present. Faith is what gives me strength to carry on in the hard times. And, I am where I am here and now, because I have faith in someone who is not seen and that someOne has given me the strength to do the impossible.

But as you noticed from the clip, “no one makes the first jump.” My faith has been rocked on more than a couple of times. I’ve stepped out into the unknown with the hopes that God would provide and ended up at a dead-end; only to turn back around and go right back to where I didn’t want to go. Those moments have left me with questions, but not doubt.

Questions prevent us from doing stupid things, doubt cripples us from doing anything. I’ve acquired quite a few questions along the way, but so far I haven’t been crippled.

Final Thought

Faith is freeing your mind to the things unseen. Believing that the impossible is possible through means that are outside of yourself.

When you find that place of faith, you’ll be able to leap the largest gap, fight the strongest villain, and find the purest of loves.

A God sized “thud” in a human sized heart [Updated]

May God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ give you grace and peace.

Every time I think of you, I give thanks to my God. Whenever I pray, I make my requests for all of you with joy, for you have been my partners in spreading the Good News about Christ from the time you first heard it until now. And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.

So it is right that I should feel as I do about all of you, for you have a special place in my heart. You share with me the special favor of God, both in my imprisonment and in defending and confirming the truth of the Good News. God knows how much I love you and long for you with the tender compassion of Christ Jesus.

I pray that your love will overflow more and more, and that you will keep on growing in knowledge and understanding. For I want you to understand what really matters, so that you may live pure and blameless lives until the day of Christ’s return. May you always be filled with the fruit of your salvation—the righteous character produced in your life by Jesus Christ—for this will bring much glory and praise to God.”

Shaking and weeping, I read these words in preparation to announcing my formal resignation. Sunday September 12th, 2010 will ring in my heart for years to come as the day my heart stood still.

I am writing this blog the day after the resignation to express my heart and passion for God’s Church, but also to clear up any misconceptions anyone may have as to why I decided to step down.

**[I openly confess that my current understanding of the following convictions are limited to my finite mind, and I may never fully understand the infinite plans of an all-knowing and all-powerful God. Therefore, the following is my current interpretation of God’s leading and may change or grow in understanding in the future.]**

A Quick Lesson

In the book of Ephesians around chapter 5, Paul is detailing pretty extensively the expectations held to those who claim the name of Christ- the Church. In what I believe is a pretty good summary statement, Paul says in verses 15-17, “So be careful how you live. Don’t live like fools, but like those who are wise. Make the most of every opportunity in these evil days. Don’t act thoughtlessly, but understand what the Lord wants you to do.”

Let me explain what I mean by these words. I believe Paul is making his argument pretty clear, the pagans make decisions foolishly and are not careful in the way they live their lives. Now, if we were to take a quick look around us, I believe we could say that about much of our culture- people making life altering decisions on a whelm or while under some sort of influence. Paul is making his argument very clear here, as followers of an all-knowing God, we are to not live like our culture does. We bare the name of Christ, therefore are His representatives in the geography He has divinely placed us.

Paul exclaims, “Make the most of every opportunity and seek to understand what the Lord wants you to do.”

Rachel and I have had a similar verse posted on our refrigerator for several weeks, which reads, “Live wisely among those who are not believers, and make the most of every opportunity. Let your conversation be gracious and attractive so that you will have the right response for everyone.

-Colosians 4:5-6

The Stirrings in a small Man

I believe these verses, among many others, have led to a supernatural stirring in my small human heart. I feel as if my small human heart has experience a single “thud” from the divinely gracious heart of God. Let me explain.

About a year ago, I was asked the question, “What does God want?” I know, it sounds like a simple question, but it is a question that has plagued my mind for over well over a year. It has been a question that has worked its way to the very depth of my soul. And this is a question, that I believe is extremely important for the Church today.

I believe the answer to this question is this, “God wants every man, woman, and child on the face of the planet to see, hear, and understand the glorious Gospel of Jesus Christ, without them having to come or go anywhere to meet Him.”

I realize that our vision as a local church is to be “Christians who are Actively Reaching Everyone,” and let me say, this is an excellent and Divinely inspired vision and goes along perfectly with my previous statement.

However, for me, this vision has not adequately fleshed itself out. Let me explain, when proposed with the question of God’s desires, I had to ask myself, “What would it look like in my life if God got what He wanted?” What I discovered was not what I believed God wanted at all!

The Heart of the Matter

Have you ever heard the old adage, “Where you’re heart is, your time will be also.” Well, for me that phrase proved everything. I took a hard long look at my schedule and discovered that my heart was not exhibiting the same time ratio as one that was reaching every man, woman, and child.

I noticed that the majority of my time was spent doing the opposite. I discovered that most of my time was being spent solely with other Christians. How am I supposed to reach a lost and dying world, if I keep spending the majority of my time with the saved and sanctified?

I’ve come to realize that this question is one that I must answer for myself; that this question is one that I, and I alone, will be held accountable for in eternity. This is a personal conviction and I do not wish to place it on anyone else, and therefore must change my life in accordance to this conviction.

I believe that God is at work in me; at work renewing my mind for the sake of the Gospel. Therefore ministry in the future must be fleshed out in a different way. Whatever this may look like, God will get the glory

I have come to believe that Christian ministry is not simply a working of the Church, but should be the very fiber of its being. And as a member of that Church, my responsibility is not to simply teach ministry, but to do ministry.

Clarifier

In saying these things, I in NO WAY seek to say that our local representation is not doing this very thing! In fact, I believe that we are actually trying our hardest to accomplish this very task. My concern is merely my own heart and the divine vision that has been placed in it!

Closing Remarks

Which brings me to the place of my resignation. I am definitely not stepping away from full-time church ministry. In fact, if anything, I’m stepping deeper into it.  My heart has always been Christ’s Bride and her mission, and will continue either until Christ’s return or my home going. Therefore, my resignation is so that Rachel and I can take the time needed to pursue this new vision that He has given and seek the absolute will of God for the future.

As for the near future, I honestly have no idea what God has in store for my wife and I, but I am expecting big things because I serve a big God. I know without a shadow of a doubt that God has been calling my human sized heart to a God sized heart’s task. I wish I knew what that task was, but God has yet to reveal it to us.

As I quoted earlier from Philippians, “Every time I thank of you, I give thanks to God… for you have been my partners in sharing the Good News of Christ.” Because of this, we will surely miss you all and will continue to send prayers up to God on your behalf. I thank you for all the love and support that you have given us in our first year of marriage. We feel that we have grown in our pursuit of God and in our love for each other through this experience.

In closing, we ask that you keep us in your prayers as we will be zealously seeking the face of God during this new season, and that God will bring continued confirmation. I also ask that you pray God send us in the direction of people who need to know Him, people who may have never had the opportunity to see, hear, or understand the message of an all-sufficient God who is passionately in pursuit for their souls.

sincerely,

Christopher E. Bell

The First will be Last

Mark 9:33-37

They came to Capernaum. When He was in the house, He asked them, “What were you arguing about on the way?” But they were silent, because on the way they had been arguing with one another about who was the greatest. Sitting down, He called the Twelve and said to them, “If anyone would be first, he must be last of all and servant of all.” And He took a child and put him in the midst of them, and taking in his arms, he said to them, “Whoever welcomes one little child such as this in My name welcomes Me. And whoever welcomes Me does not welcome Me, but Him who sent Me.”

So Jesus is walking to Capernaum. And when he reached the house that he would be staying at, he overheard the disciples arguing about something. So he asked them, “What are you arguing about!?”

There was silence! They just got caught in the act. I mean, think about it, they just got caught by Jesus. Of course he knew what they were arguing about… he is Jesus!

So these guys are arguing about who is the greatest. Really a dumb sounding conversation… In my mind, I imagine it looked something like when we were little kids and we were bragging about how better we are then everyone else. Or the old “Mine is better than yours!” fight as a kid.

Jesus knows this and sits down with the disciples and said, “If anyone wants to be first, he must be last of all and servant of all.” Jesus doesn’t really condemn them for wanting to be the greatest, instead he kind of says, “your approach here is all wrong.”

Jesus essentially is saying, “If you want to be honored and if you want to be recognized and if you really want to be the greatest, let me tell you how to do it.” It’s not by climbing the ladder, it’s by descending the ladder.

Context

For the disciple’s defense, let me set up the context for you. These guys just came down off of the mount of transfiguration. At the mount of transfiguration, Jesus appeared to them in all of his radiant glory. Not only that, Elijah and Moses, the two OT guys, supernaturally appeared to them.

Think about if you were in this situation. You’ve just spent a year or two with Jesus, hearing Him teach about the coming Kingdom, then all of a sudden you get to see some awesome supernatural feet. If that was me, I would be feeling pretty good about myself. I mean, I would be thinking, “wow! I just saw the most awesome thing ever!”

Think about it this way, look back in your life and think about a time when you got to be part of something amazing. Afterward, did you feel kind of special?

A few years ago, I got to be part of Winter Jam. I volunteered to work the event, basically so I could see Jeremy Camp for free. There were tons of other bands there, but all I wanted to see was Jeremy. Well, I go the neat opportunity to help take up the offering taken up that night to help some starving kids somewhere. Well, through a weird series of events, I found myself backstage with two other guys. After handing off the buckets full of cash, we kind of stayed backstage. We knew we weren’t supposed to be there, but we were. Not only that we got to meet all of the bands as they were coming out to go up on stage. By far the best location in the whole place. The next day, as I met with my friends at lunch, I got to tell them how special I was, in getting to be back stage the whole concert. How I got to do something they didn’t get to do. How I got to experience something they didn’t get to experience.

I was feeling pretty good about myself. I imagine this was how the disciples felt after leaving the mount seeing the superstars Moses and Elijah.

So these guys knew that they got to experience something, no one else on the planet had gotten to experience. They knew that they were selected above everyone else. They felt that they were great, but the question among themselves was “Who’s the greatest?”

The American Way

Which I believe can be much of our focus here. Who’s going to be at the top of the class? Who’s going to be the leading scorer? Who’s going to win the gold metal? It’s just the American way.

I mean, early on as kids, we are enrolled in scoring contest, beauty contest, athletic contest, academic contest…etc.

How many of you guys have a lot of trophies? I used to have a lot of soccer trophies when I was a kid. I used to hang them on my wall, place them on my shelf, and brag to all who entered of my greatness.  My focus was on being the best.

I think that somewhere within us, we think that the way to greatness is through winning, through outdoing everyone else, through receiving the recognition.

So Jesus, just took the American dream and turned it upside down!

He says, “yes, this what you’ve been focusing on. You think this is what life is about, and it’s completely off. I’m telling you this is what life is about. It’s not about getting the best seat in the house. Or getting first place at an event.”

Mark 10:31 says, “But many who are the greatest now will be the least important then, and those who seem least important now will be the greatest then.”

If this life is just a breathe, if this life is just a moment, and we have all of eternity to go; then wouldn’t it make sense to live this life with all of eternity in mind? Recognize what Jesus says here in this verse, that those who are considered least here will be greatest in heaven.

Maybe this life is not about self promotion or titles or net worth or autographs or trophies or to be famous, but to go to the back of the line, to give up the best seat in the house, to take your vacation and go on a mission trip, to take your money and buy lunch for someone else, to give of your abundance, to sacrifice something of yours for the betterment of someone else- not expecting anything in return.

You serve in ways that nobody notices, you serve in times where nobody says thank you. You are constantly doing the opposite of what “feels right.”

The Brain Game

So, I learned today that things don’t always work out like you planned- and this is a good thing! When life throws you lemons make sweet tea… or something like that…

I think that sometimes we can have the tendency to get so caught up in our own heads that we forget that others are out there willing to help us along or better yet- pick us up when we fall. God did a really good job creating relationships. When the Spirit frees us up from the trappings of the Enemy, we can see how good God is in the creation of relationships. I mean they work so well, when the Enemy isn’t involved.

Today, I learned that my perfect little world isn’t all that perfect. That I’m not always right, even when I’ve got a very good argument to be right. You see, sometimes we can get so caught up in our own heads and so mixed up in our thoughts we miss the very thing that we desire the most- relationship. We long for a good relationship, but fear the steps to get to one.

I don’t really understand how everything works, but I have learned that I need to trust others a little more than I do. Sometimes other people can be more right than me… Thanks for letting me share 🙂