“There’s a cry in my heart,
For Your glory to fall,
For Your presence to fill up my senses.
There’s a yearning again,
A thirst for discipline,
A longing for things that are deeper.
Can you take me beyond?
Could you carry me through?
If I opened my heart,
Could I go there with You?
For I’ve been there before,
Yet I know there’s still more.
Oh Lord I need to know You.”
I love the song “There’s a cry in my heart.” It’s recently become one of my favorite songs.
I love this song because it speaks directly to the longings in my heart. It’s as if there is a fire burning deep within me that pushes me forward to things unseen.
Do you remember the story of Jeremiah?
Jeremiah is often called the “weeping prophet.” He’s called this because God called him to a task that seemed impossible and many times he was left weeping because the people were unresponsive to the message he had to proclaim.
There’s a part of his story that is heart breaking, yet leaves you with a strange desire for the same thing. In this part of his story, Jeremiah is pleading with God about the call that has been given him. He cry’s out to God in anger saying, “Whenever I speak, I cry out, I shout, ‘Violence and destruction!’” Jeremiah was given the job of calling the God’s people to repentance and the people didn’t want to repent, therefore Jeremiah was frustrated.
But the next line is what catches my heart: Jeremiah says, “If I say, ‘I will not mention Him or speak anymore of His name,’ there is in my heart a burning fire shut up in my bones, I am weary with holding it in, and I cannot!”
God gave Jeremiah a burning passion down deep in his heart, and he couldn’t hold it in!
I feel that God has given me a similar burning down deep in my bones. I feel it constant. I wish I could be rid of it, but it’s divinely inspired. And it drives me forward.
I grow weary at times, because I feel as if I have to hold it in, but I cannot!
Is it the Spirit or am I going nuts?
Have you ever had the strange desire to proclaim Christ at the top of your lungs in public places? I have…
This has happened several times at random coffee shops and book stores that I have been at. The desire always follows some amazing revelation from the Word.
I can remember a time that I was at a local coffee shop in town, and I had been preparing for a lesson that I was to teach my students later that day. I can remember reading some verses and having the overwhelming feeling that I was supposed to stand and proclaim Christ to the four people sitting around me.
I know this sounds a little crazy. If I were to stand up and start reading from the Word or preaching something on my heart, I would probably get kicked out and not asked to return by the management. Or worse, people could think I’m crazy!
Like I said, I know this sounds a little strange, but I can’t help but wonder if it’s the Spirit inside of me trying to burst out? I can’t help but wonder if this is this kind of like that burning fire that Jeremiah said was shut up in his bones?
I can relate to Jeremiah’s frustration in growing weary of holding it in. As I sit quietly, my spirit aches and my heart breaks with the knowledge that those around me may very well go to Hell not hearing the message God has for them.
If I’ve said this many times, I’m going to say it again, “I’m not sure what the future holds, but I have to find out!” If this burning in my bones is God, then the only appropriate response is a reckless abandonment of the present for a passionate pursuit of the future. Whatever God has in store will be exciting, and if it is God’s, it will bring His name the glory!